"Every man dies, but few men really live".... A quote that a very dear person challenged me to think about... so I was in Chemistry... got totally lost in what my prof. was saying, therefore I thought it to be a good time to meditate on this quote...
and what I found my self thinking was that, yes, I understand that everyman dies... but then I asked myself what it meant to live... so I compiled a few thoughts...
(in no specific order)
- be the best I can be
- be happy and don't let things that don't really matter in the grand scheme of things ruin a day that I have the opportunity to live
-look at each day as an opportunity
-to love the strongest and hardest that I can... (made me think of a line in a country song.. "I'm gonna love you, like it's the last day of my life...") haha
-to be a light to the world and shine as bright at the Lord enables me to
-have faith enought to move mountains
-make a difference... world changing or one life changing
-serve the best and hardest that I can
-encourage strangers randomly
-laugh at everything... good or bad that comes along
-appreciate the little things more
-appreciate the big things more
-see new things and new places
-face fears (heights, snakes, disapproval, rejection... ect.) .... "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will take care of itself...." (I don't remember the reference)
-to have my steps orderd of the Lord... always!
-to surprise people
-not miss a sun rise or sunset
-to take a positive advantage of every opportunity, and celebrate it to it's highest potential
And so after I make this list I took an acessment... and I do get the opportunity to live quite a few of these out, which is really awesome... but there is always room for more... and then some of these I flat out don't even think about... so, yeah, just kindof a internal view of one of my goals... to live!
Anyways, this semester is almost over, and It's kinda bitter sweet... I am not gonna miss the classes but there are a couple of friends that I have made that I don't know I will ever see again... my friend ZuZu, she is from Turkey, totally awesome girl... and then there is Chad, poor guy had to teach me so much... lol, he is a friend that is about to go off to dent. school... and the to cute for his own good guy got his degree in Chem. so, yeah, his knowledge was so welcomed! Along with him being a pretty awesome guy... and then there is this couple in my chem. class... God lov'em.... there are fun to just sit back and watch... and then there is this guy that audits our Chem class... Sky thinks he is an angel... but he has just been so awesome to Sky and I in just being patient in helping us understand things.... anyways, I could go on... but I won't... haha... so yeah, things are gonna be a bit different! But I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO looking forward to New Orleans!! WHoo Hoo!! I will write more about that trip in a bit... but for now... I am gonna pass out!
Blessings!!
Ps. we got 3 calves today... two heffers and one bull... 4. mo, 2mo. and 1 mo. old!! They are kinda cute... I'm not gonna lie!
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Thursday, June 22, 2006
l m n o p....
So, I was thinkin...
just about growing up and the things that take place during the process... how we grow up in some areas and we grow down in some areas... and some, just remain...
its like a huge part of me wants to be 5 and ask my Daddy how to do everything and just be his little girl... but then there is a part of me that cannot wait to be out in the work place working as hard as I can at doing something I totally love... and then there is the now... where, I am just kinda taking little steps to get to the later... here, a place where I have to find contentment... here a place where I must remain patient... here, now, a moment, a season... this is reality. I can plan my future, I can dream about my past... but today... I am just living it... I may die tomorrow or in 5 min. from now or in 100 years...
purpose, I think that is key in so many areas! Just think, if we were to take ourselves out of any situation that get in... and just question the purpose of us doing what were doing... we would be more confident in our decisions... yes/no? And what if were were that person that thought everything through and had a logical explaination for all said, a good one... is that then reaching a level of success? What about what the Lord has to say and His plan for our lives?? Are we taking that in to account?
See, if we don't live day to day... these questions can become somewhat overwhelming.... and become more of a burden then a blessing... and I don't think anything is purposed in life to be a burden... ever... if we have a true peace about things... then why question??
Peace, that is a wonderful thing to pray for... for God to give us peace when it is the right decision and a lack of peace when it is the wrong one.... then the only choice we have to make is are we willing to be obediant to what the Holy Spirit is telling us??....
Think... what did you/I do today that surves a purpose to effect tomorrow? What about something that serves a purpose for something that will effect eternity?? That is when that 5 year old part comes out of me... why can't I just love people like I did when I was 5... run up and give random people hugs and just contain that never ending level of love that a child obtains?? And the faith... incredible!
KEY??? Balance... maybe yes, maybe no... or maybe it is just as simple as being obedient to what the Lord is giving directions in....?
just about growing up and the things that take place during the process... how we grow up in some areas and we grow down in some areas... and some, just remain...
its like a huge part of me wants to be 5 and ask my Daddy how to do everything and just be his little girl... but then there is a part of me that cannot wait to be out in the work place working as hard as I can at doing something I totally love... and then there is the now... where, I am just kinda taking little steps to get to the later... here, a place where I have to find contentment... here a place where I must remain patient... here, now, a moment, a season... this is reality. I can plan my future, I can dream about my past... but today... I am just living it... I may die tomorrow or in 5 min. from now or in 100 years...
purpose, I think that is key in so many areas! Just think, if we were to take ourselves out of any situation that get in... and just question the purpose of us doing what were doing... we would be more confident in our decisions... yes/no? And what if were were that person that thought everything through and had a logical explaination for all said, a good one... is that then reaching a level of success? What about what the Lord has to say and His plan for our lives?? Are we taking that in to account?
See, if we don't live day to day... these questions can become somewhat overwhelming.... and become more of a burden then a blessing... and I don't think anything is purposed in life to be a burden... ever... if we have a true peace about things... then why question??
Peace, that is a wonderful thing to pray for... for God to give us peace when it is the right decision and a lack of peace when it is the wrong one.... then the only choice we have to make is are we willing to be obediant to what the Holy Spirit is telling us??....
Think... what did you/I do today that surves a purpose to effect tomorrow? What about something that serves a purpose for something that will effect eternity?? That is when that 5 year old part comes out of me... why can't I just love people like I did when I was 5... run up and give random people hugs and just contain that never ending level of love that a child obtains?? And the faith... incredible!
KEY??? Balance... maybe yes, maybe no... or maybe it is just as simple as being obedient to what the Lord is giving directions in....?
Saturday, June 17, 2006
the girl I will know
There she is,
playing with her toys,
at peace playing with other girls and boys.
I would have never thought she would be where she is,
it's a miracle, that shows who God really is.
as her hair falls in her face,
I have to sit back and laugh,
I can't believe she can actually do that!
she is so young to have learned such difficult lessons,
but this little one has taught me more then a thousand 'how to live right' sessions.
I question her purpose being on earth at this time,
on angels wings she will soar beyond knowledge in the human mind.
she is pure, perfect, and holy,
she is a daughter of the King of Kings... He said it,
End of Story.
It's interesting you see,
that little girl bears a strange resembalance to me.
I once knew what life was about,
having love, joy, and peace at all times... and to never ever doubt.
I once would take a step,
not even knowing it was faith,
I could just expect my Father to step up to the plate.
I once had a smile that could break any ice,
with no fear of being undignified.
Proper and presentable is what I have been tought to be,
good? yes, but I would like for someone to look at me and have the child as the one they see.
A girl who will play with no questions asked,
A leap of faith would be in every step I take,
I have been taught so much just by the thought of you,
I pray you will keep these memories as you grow,
and not look back at the child you used to know.
But carry her with you as the days go on,
Protect her,
learn from her,
remember who's daughter you are,
be faithful and strong,
and I will always be here believing in you and cheering you on.
playing with her toys,
at peace playing with other girls and boys.
I would have never thought she would be where she is,
it's a miracle, that shows who God really is.
as her hair falls in her face,
I have to sit back and laugh,
I can't believe she can actually do that!
she is so young to have learned such difficult lessons,
but this little one has taught me more then a thousand 'how to live right' sessions.
I question her purpose being on earth at this time,
on angels wings she will soar beyond knowledge in the human mind.
she is pure, perfect, and holy,
she is a daughter of the King of Kings... He said it,
End of Story.
It's interesting you see,
that little girl bears a strange resembalance to me.
I once knew what life was about,
having love, joy, and peace at all times... and to never ever doubt.
I once would take a step,
not even knowing it was faith,
I could just expect my Father to step up to the plate.
I once had a smile that could break any ice,
with no fear of being undignified.
Proper and presentable is what I have been tought to be,
good? yes, but I would like for someone to look at me and have the child as the one they see.
A girl who will play with no questions asked,
A leap of faith would be in every step I take,
I have been taught so much just by the thought of you,
I pray you will keep these memories as you grow,
and not look back at the child you used to know.
But carry her with you as the days go on,
Protect her,
learn from her,
remember who's daughter you are,
be faithful and strong,
and I will always be here believing in you and cheering you on.
Friday, June 16, 2006
songs on my heart...
"God is doing a work in me... He's walking through my rooms and halls-- checking every corner... tearing down the unsafe walls... letting in the light... now it's time I clean my house and set it straight... not let pride get in the way... to make an eternal vision of... I am to be kind.... will You, help me be new, will you hold me to the promises, that I have made.... will you... let me be new, forgive myoldself... and old mistakes... it seems easier, living out my life in Christ for those who do not know me, to hide the thorn stuck in my side, all my secret faults, you know me well, and it's you I want to most to see, recognize the changes, a word from you empowers me to press on for my goal, will you help me be new, will you hold me to the promises that I have made.... .... when I feel condemned to live my old life, remind me I have been given, a new life in Christ... will you help me be new will you hold me to the promises that I have make, will you let me be new forgive my old self and my old mistakes... will you... you know me well...."
"Dress down your pretty faith... give me something real... Leave out the 'The' and 'Thou' and speak to me now... speak to my pain and confusion... speak through my fears and my pride... speak to the part of me that knows I'm something deep down inside...I know that I am not perfect, but compare me to most... in a world of hurt and a world of anger, I think I'm holding my own.... now I know that you said there is more to life, no I am not satisfied, but there are mornings I wake up and I am just thankful to be alive.....I've known now, for quite a while that I am not whole... I remembered the body and mind, but disected my soul... now there's something inside thats awakening, like a dream I once had and forgot... and it's something I'm scared of and something I don't want to stop... and I woke up thismorning and realized that Jesus is not a portriat or stain glass windows or hams or all the tradition that surrounds us, and I thought it would be hard to believe in, but its not hard at all to believe I have sinned and fallen short of the Glorly of God... and He's not asking me to change in my joyful marterdom, He's asking to take my place, to stand in that gap that I have formed, with His real, and his sweet, and His real amazing grace... and it's not just a sign or sacrament... it's not just a metaphor for love, the blood is real and its' not just a symbol of, its not a sign or a sacrament, it's not just a metephore for love, the blood is real it's not just a symbol, it is real it's not just a symbol of, His blood is real, it's not just a symbol of... His grace.... so leave out the 'The and Thou' and speak now.... "
"So proud and excited that I by myself, had reached such a lofty place... I reached my last step to my ultimate goal, and clumsuly fell on my face... I opend my eyes only to find I was back at the place I had begun... and I said to myself, surely the enemy has won... And I felt, his peace that passes understand, grace that is never ending, love that overflows my soul... as I wollowed in self pity he came to sit with me there, his presence alone was so rich and so deep, it chased away all my dispair, I said "Lord please forgive me for my prideful heart, it sneakes in before I know," He said... "What prideful heart" he forgave and forgot.... He said, "how I want you to know"... my peace that passes understand, grace... that is never ending... love.... that overflows my soul.... daily I humble myself at His feet, I make his desire my will... for he has taken me higher then I have ever been and Hes taking me higher still... with His peace that passes understanding, grace... that is never ending... love that overflows my soul... peace, grace... love.... overflows my soul... my soul"
"Dress down your pretty faith... give me something real... Leave out the 'The' and 'Thou' and speak to me now... speak to my pain and confusion... speak through my fears and my pride... speak to the part of me that knows I'm something deep down inside...I know that I am not perfect, but compare me to most... in a world of hurt and a world of anger, I think I'm holding my own.... now I know that you said there is more to life, no I am not satisfied, but there are mornings I wake up and I am just thankful to be alive.....I've known now, for quite a while that I am not whole... I remembered the body and mind, but disected my soul... now there's something inside thats awakening, like a dream I once had and forgot... and it's something I'm scared of and something I don't want to stop... and I woke up thismorning and realized that Jesus is not a portriat or stain glass windows or hams or all the tradition that surrounds us, and I thought it would be hard to believe in, but its not hard at all to believe I have sinned and fallen short of the Glorly of God... and He's not asking me to change in my joyful marterdom, He's asking to take my place, to stand in that gap that I have formed, with His real, and his sweet, and His real amazing grace... and it's not just a sign or sacrament... it's not just a metaphor for love, the blood is real and its' not just a symbol of, its not a sign or a sacrament, it's not just a metephore for love, the blood is real it's not just a symbol, it is real it's not just a symbol of, His blood is real, it's not just a symbol of... His grace.... so leave out the 'The and Thou' and speak now.... "
"So proud and excited that I by myself, had reached such a lofty place... I reached my last step to my ultimate goal, and clumsuly fell on my face... I opend my eyes only to find I was back at the place I had begun... and I said to myself, surely the enemy has won... And I felt, his peace that passes understand, grace that is never ending, love that overflows my soul... as I wollowed in self pity he came to sit with me there, his presence alone was so rich and so deep, it chased away all my dispair, I said "Lord please forgive me for my prideful heart, it sneakes in before I know," He said... "What prideful heart" he forgave and forgot.... He said, "how I want you to know"... my peace that passes understand, grace... that is never ending... love.... that overflows my soul.... daily I humble myself at His feet, I make his desire my will... for he has taken me higher then I have ever been and Hes taking me higher still... with His peace that passes understanding, grace... that is never ending... love that overflows my soul... peace, grace... love.... overflows my soul... my soul"
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
I do, I do have a life!!
Alrighty... well, it is almost to that smack dab in the middle of summer mark.... weather is hitting one hundred degrees, and when I get in my car it takes just as long for it to cool off as it does for me to get where I'm going!! Haha... it's all good though! School is going swell.... just had my first run through of exams earlier this week.... I didn't do as well as I had hoped... due to some lack of brain activity on my part... but, nothin to lose sleep over! =).....
So Jesus is pretty much amazing... and incase you were wondering... He is alive and well and wanting to talk to you really soon!!
And I was thinking the other day.... how amazing it would be if we all walked around on our hands and knees for just a day and took a look at the world from the view of a child! Adventure would be in your blood and you would have oreo cookie all over your face and in your teeth... (don't for get the milk mustache too!).... and you would ask important questions... like.... "why is the grass green?" or " if I were to swing my arms up and down could I fly too?".....
What a wonderful way to approach life!!
So Jesus is pretty much amazing... and incase you were wondering... He is alive and well and wanting to talk to you really soon!!
And I was thinking the other day.... how amazing it would be if we all walked around on our hands and knees for just a day and took a look at the world from the view of a child! Adventure would be in your blood and you would have oreo cookie all over your face and in your teeth... (don't for get the milk mustache too!).... and you would ask important questions... like.... "why is the grass green?" or " if I were to swing my arms up and down could I fly too?".....
What a wonderful way to approach life!!
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