I WILL NOT BE DEFEATED!

You know what... I absolutley HATE feeling defeated! My initial fleshly feeling is to take on the world by myself, because no one is gonna defeat me! Sounds pretty prideful, hu? Yeah, well, it is... I, in my flesh cannot take on the world, it will be a constant power struggle between me and the world because on my own I will always be defeated. But when I have the Lord on my side I feel stronger... but I still struggle with wanting to take the reigns and protect myself... I have this like mental image in my mind of two dogs we once had... ones name was Sasha and the other Star. Now Sasha was like 4lbs. soaking wet... she was my lil baby... but Star was a huge bear, she was approx. 125lbs... not soaking wet! Well, this picture I have in my mind is lil Sasha barking at an intruder and the intruder look at her like a fly on a wall... but Sasha, she still has a lot of confidence in her bark being very offensive. But then Star gets involved and doesn't even have to bark... but she just quietly stands behind Sasha gives the intruder a look and they run off... and Sasha walks away with a grin on her face like she has just won a battle, barly acknowledging that Star was even there.

So many times I am just like Sasha. I have this pride like I can do things myself, and it in a way, it is a part of what defines who I am, so I take a comfort in thinking that I was the one what won the battle. When all along, God (star) was the only one really fighting.

words that keep going through my mind today...

I choose you,
All my attention, affection, all my devotion,
I choose YOU!

on my mind...

So, I am absolutely in love with being in God's will!! haha.. ya know, I am finding that the more credit we take for little blessings the more it opens the door for pride. But if we close our yappers and open our eyes to see that even the smallest blessings comes from God... God reveals His glory all the more to us! It gives us opportunity to get to know Him on a more intimate level! Cuz, like, you know.. When a certain special someone notices that you put forth the thought and the effort to do something that was simply sweet and straight up thoughtful, it makes you feel appreciated! And well, on a human scale I can see how that would mean a lot... And so I think we should give God the glory for everything! Honestly, can we as humans do anything good or fruitful on our own??? Lemme help ya out here.... NO!!! We can't, therefore, what glory do we deserve if it isn't even us doing it in the first place?! ...None, but we can find our confidence not in what we do, but in what God does through us! If Christ is in us... Then what do we have to feel inferior to? We can do anything! And it will all be for the glory of God!! Which closes the doors for pride! So, God, I pray that You would be blessed, honored, and glorified through my life!!

Goodnight and God Bless!

Ps. my next round of tests are my finals... whoah... need to step it up! Time to hit the books hard core chika!

I finally got one of these

So, I like to write... a lot of things... thoughts, prayers, stories, and just vent through writing... so for anyone that likes to read, I promise this will be boring, intersting, corny, and entertaining!